There must be more........

Not satisfied... Enlarge me... For more of You....

The man who has no imagination has no wings

God.. Give me wings to fly..................

You never have to advertise a fire...

If I can set young people to be on fire for Jesus, it will be the best advertisement of "there is FIRE in the house!!!!".. Guess the world is tired of smokey Christianity... Smoke of past fires of people who used to be on fire.. Smoke of past revivals and breakthroughs.. Probably even smoke of a farce of what Christianity is about.....

When there is fire, people will be attracted to the light and smoke.. All will come flocking to watch and indeed, there can feel the heat as they get near.. As the young people burn for Jesus, let the world come and feel the heat.. The heat of His passion.. The warmth of His love.. The light of His salvation..

You never have to advertise a fire....

"I set myself on fire and people come to watch me burn."-John Wesley

Rest...................

Will plan for a good two weeks of rest..... Must............................

Looking forward to meeting my best BFF Charlene. The only one where I can be myself 100%. Where I can be gentlemanly yet boyish, serious yet playful,composed yet funny. hahaha.. Must lead her to Christ.. As well as her boyfriend Ker.. Wah how he waited, perserved and chased her really make me salute him.. Really good boyfriend.. Yeah both of them must come to the Lord.. =D .. I must make it so hard for them to go to hell.. YES!!!!!!! =))

As Isaiah spoke to me last year, he said what do I look for in a wife as well as if I have anyone in mind. So I shared what do I look for and all. I still remember vividly what he said and I agreed with him 100%. He said, "Gary. Are you looking for a preacher or a wife? A missionary or someone who knows how to take care of the home?" Even recently, Peh han talked to me and said,"It is really not a matter of just how you felt God speaks to you, whether you hear from Him correctly or not. The question is do you like her and does she likes you." It really brings clarity to me. It really is not just about how good she is as a woman of God or about her ministry or her integrity or what. Husband and wife is a relationship and a relationship is relational.. So duh rite.. We must enjoy one another's company and walking together.. So far I have found none that is like that.. So still waiting.. Hahaha.. =D

Well I am happy that finally Liverpool finally chalked up some good wins.. hope the season can be redeemed.. hehe.. I am very happy Real Madrid is doing excellent.. Yeah!!!! I am also surprised that Dwayne Low likes Real Madrid.. so funny.. hahaha

Din sleep at all.. Left church office at 2am.. Done up my ECTA essay but got lots to touch up.. Reached and din manage to sleep a wink.. Duno why.. But I am still wide awake.. Guess I am really nocturnal.. hehehe..

"I would rather teach one man to pray than ten men to preach."-J.H Jowett

Stressed.........................

Time time time time.. haix.........................................................................................................................

Thoughts..........

The heights by great men reached and kept, were not attained by sudden flight, but they, while their companions slept, were toiling upward in the night.

Don't say you don't have enough time. You have exactly the same number of hours per day that were given to people like Smith Wrigglesworth, Jentezen Franklin, Pastor Yang, Lee Kuan Yew, Kaka, Usain Bolt, John C Maxwell, Albert Einstein and Mother Teresa.

I hate every minute of training, but I said,"Don't quit. suffer now and live the rest of your life as champion."

Renewed commitment.. =D

Had a really good time praying, reading the bible, looking through a couple of chapters in Smith Wrigglesworth devotional book and saw a couple of Jentezen Franklin's video sermons.. Really stirred up..

Made a serious and renewed commitment to God.. By the age of 30, I will remain single and not think about relationships or marriage at all.. I spent abit of time thinking through and felt I would rather spend the time and money investing in God's calling for my life.. Alot of things will be hindered and stripped off if I am in a relationship or married. I have some dreams to pursue and I will give up all and everything to go for it. The next three years, I want to invest to build up a really solid foundation to propel me for life after the age of 30.

To be really honest, up till now, I also have not found someone whom I really loved to run together in God's calling. Over the years, less than a handful caught my attention. Only a couple set me really praying about it. But ermmmm a waste of time. Only one I got really positive answers it seem. But after some time, personally I din really like. As one ex-colleague, Siti says, "Ahyo Cin Cau.. Why you so fussy?" or "Cin Cau.. Lower your standards.." Hahaha.. Or best, my the other ex-colleague, Charlene says,"Stupid Gary.. This one no gd.. That one dun want.. Go and be monk larx"

I actually sometimes find my life quite amusing.. Oh wells.. Yes really excited for the next three years.. Wana go mission trips in 2010.. Exciting Exciting Exciting.. Gary you can do it!!! Gambatte!!!!!!

The Real Me........ =D

1. Gary is always cool. He do not get discouraged. He is always a pillar of strength.
2. Gary is a standup comedian. Everything he does is funny.
3. Gary is very vain leix.
4. Gary is wise. He is the guru.
5. Gary enguish.. damalitan.. hahaha
6. Gary is very expressive. Very real.
7. Gary is prophetic.
8. Gary is a Liverpool fan.

Probaby these are the 8 things that I hear about me quite often. As I touch my heart n get real.. How true or how has these 8 statements affected me whether positive or negative:

1. It is suffocating at times. If man of God like Elijah and Peter can break down due to trials or failings, can Gary be always strong n cool? .. Maybe people do not know the many number of times when I feel weak, inadequate, looked down, useless, ridiculed.. I prayed alot also because circumstances, people and the enemy pushed me to nowhere else but God.. On my knees and face because I feel so powerless and weak that I have to surrender. Either I turn to God or I turn away and walk out of church. I thank God that He has been AWEsome.. When I am weak, He is strong. His strength is perfected in my weaknesses. His grace is sufficient. My life has His Fingerprints all over. When I am faithless, He is faithful.
   
2. I enjoyed this tremendous gift. I like to see the smiles and laughter of young people. At times it is frustrating because sometimes I am not taken seriously. At times certain comments are hurting. Nevertheless, if I can be the clown so that a hurting group can laugh their hurts off, it is a small price to pay. It is very rewarding when I can break up a stiff or bad atmosphere into something funny or positive.
3. I like to look good. It is part of my DNA too. I also believe if I make an effort to dress up n comb my hair to meet people, it shows my respect for the person. If God put so much effort to make me look good, why should I heck care and ignore my looks and make myself like sloppy or bad?
4. It is not I am wise or I am guru. 3 things helped me. Firstly, I read. Secondly, I prayed for spiritual giftings. Thirdly, I learn my lessons in life.
5. Haix. I also want to speak like Jentezen Franklin, Peh han, Pastor Jiancong or Pastor Ben. I really tried. But I find it very hard. The more I think of my grammer, the more I think of my sentence structures and all, the more I become self-conscious and scared. Can I be myself? You understand what I am speaking at least rite? Can hear my heart of the message, not just my words only?
   
6. I am really very shy. The people I treasure and love but I just feel too shy to say I love you or I really thank God that you are in my life or I will never exchange anything in this world for you. Hence, I can only express it but touch. Like pat on the shoulder, soft tap on the head, a soft grab on the wrist with a sincere smile. People like my godsisters who are Christine and Alina. Christine really means alot to me but just that we are busy people and also I duno how to express it to her. My heart is moved very easily by how she is doing and feeling. Of course, I appreciate my extremely rare peers whom I can relate 100% transparent and honest to. Namely Pastor Jiancong, Peh Han, Joshua Khong, Adrian Seah. The other 2 people are my ex-colleagues: Siti and Charlene whom we suffered thick and thin together and also laugh and go crazy together even now. These 8 names are the only people whom I cannot live without and whom knows the real me.
7. Please dun over-spiritualize me. I just love God and love people. I just pray for people during my quiet time and also during ministry times. Nothing more nothing less. I also prayed for spiritual giftings and a heart that God has for the people. That is all. I am just praying normally just as anyone would.
8. Yes!!! I also a Real Madrid fan. Probably I am more verbal about my Liverpool support that is why people only thought I am just a Liverpool fan.

Haix.. Not sure how many people will read this blog. But I am fine with it to be seen. These 8 statements are nothing to hide. I will share it if I had to any moment anytime when needed.

Your heart.. my heart... =))

Tuesday and Wednesday were rather normal days at work. Wednesday attended my lessons. Learnt Satir's Iceberg Model. Thought of a few people in Generations when I saw the different types of responses in the model. hehehe.. Dun wana say names.. Sensitive.. Xp

Thursday was really AWEsome.. morning prayed and read quite alot on Winning with People by John C Maxwell... hehehe.. 2.30pm to 4.30pm I was with Isaiah and Meiling in the healing room because we are rostered to pray for people... It is new to me as it is the first time where I had the opportunity to pray for the sick and needy with anointing oil.. It is really different.. Each time as I hear the person shared his/her situation, I just felt a tugging in my heart.. a certain love yet sadness too at the person's situation.. As I prayed for the people, really sensed a change in my heart.. It is like a new heart.. feeling a unique emotion.. A certain love that interprets God's heart and message for the person.. It was a really great time and felt that I have moved on to a fresh move of God in my life and really looking forward to see more.. AWEsome!!!!!

Late afternoon, had a good time giving bible study and toking to Ben. Passed him my guitar n tuner n capo. =))

Night time went to play FUTSAL at Kallang with Isaiah.. Our team was the first team that played.. Wah very power.. for the first time ever, a team went 1 and a half hour winning run.. It is not like unbeaten leix.. It is winning all the way.. hahaha... So cool rite.. but I was kinda off though my passings.. kinda worried for my left ankle cause still recuperating.. abit off balance too.. hehehe..

A season of enlargement and growth

4 more months left... Looking forward to have the sharpest growth curve ever in my life:

• Physical:

1. From 64kg to 70kg
2. IPPT Silver
3. Shoulders, arms and legs muscles visibly increased in size and cutting
4. Minimum 4 solid pex, 6pex is possible

• Soccer:

1. Good ball control with both feet. Never letting the ball bounce more than once. If best, try all balls first time.
2. Able to pass well with both feet. Able to put correct weight and direction on the ball with both feet.
3. Confidence. Able to run into space, call out for ball, shield the ball and release the ball well.

• Spiritual:

1. Fast at least once a week.
2. Enlarge my prayer capacity to pray for people as well as nations.
   
3. Memorize and able to quote many scriptures.
4. Learn and engage more in spiritual warfare and deliverance.
   

• Knowledge:

1. Complete at least 3 John C Maxwell books.
2. Complete at least 3 books on Spiritual Warfare and Deliverance.
3. Complete at least 3 books on Faith
4. Complete at least 5 books on other topics
5. Complete at least 1 book on a secular topic

Yeah!!! All geared up!!!! It will be very challenging on a personal level. Wana enter 2010 with a bang. My best years are ahead.

"The man who has no imagination has no wings." - Muhammad Ali

"All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them." - Walt Disney

I refuse to let go of my dreams... Never...................